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Well hello everybody.
It's been like 800 years since I've posted in this journal.
Anyone miss me?
Highly un-likely eh..?
*lol*
Nothings new.
At all.
Life still sucks. Nothing ever changes.
Boys suck. Relationships suck. School sucks.
Work sucks. Oh and for those of you who don't know, I work at Subway (eat fresh) now. *shoots self*
BAHAHA.
Erm. I tried seeing someone new since some of my last entries. That worked out great.
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Yeap. Lasted longer than most of my other relationships tho. Turns out "I deserve better"
Thats funny because thats what they all say.
I really miss Jamie.
I really do.
I was just talking to him a little while ago and apparently the feelings are mutual.
That makes me happy. But I don't know if things would ever work out.Maybe after graduation. Who knows? I'd like for them too someday.. That boy means more to me than words could describe.
I'm serious. Never in my life have I felt like that about someone. It's fucken nuts. Like, no matter what happens, who says what, who has done what, I can't get over him. Ever.
And I've felt like this since last June. Honestly.
*shrug*
Lets not talk about relationships anymore, k?
They sadden me because deep down I can feel myself being alone forever and that scares me.
Right.
Sooo.
I went to my first C.B Pride dance a few weeks ago.
That was really fun.
Theres one again this Saturday. I believe I'm going..as long as Ashley goes with me, I'd feel weird if she didn't.
Anyway.
I'm supposed to be doing an essay for English class that was due last week.
And alas, I'm not doing it, nor will I tonight I'm sure. I'll have to talk to the principal on the real reason why I didn't do it.
See.I did do it. Then it didn't save and got deleted or some shit and then I just couldn't be bothered doing it again
I made up excuses all week about being sick and stuff but really, I've just been so god awefully depressed I don't feel like doing anything at all. Like seriously.
I haven't been to school for like a week.
I haven't dressed pretty or worn any makeup in like a week. Fuck. I think tonight was the first time I showered in days. Thats fucken gross. I haven't even gotten up off my couch in days. I haven't eaten in days. I didn't do anything. Before tonight..I don't remember the last time I laughed or felt good.
It's just been a really shitty week ...long time.
It seems to progressively be getting better.
Like. I don't know. I just hope it is. But last time I thought things were going good, everything fucked up. Well, everytime I think things are going good..something seems like it has to fuck up and make me miserable.
Oh well.
Thats life.
It's not always sunshines and rainbows.
As much as we'd like it to be, it can't be.
And for those of you who have a sunshiney rainbow fucking life you can all go fuck yourselves. <3333 :)
The relationship I have with my parents is getting a lot better as of lately too.
So thats pretty good.
Or maybe it's because my Mom has been on the other side of the world for the last 2 weeks and Dads just never home anyway. Perhaps.
But even before that, Mom and I have been getting along A LOT better. That makes me happy.
Anyway.
I should really be going.
I'm going to go to bed and get up early tomorrow and try to do that essay and go to school in the afternoon.
Doubtfully tho.
Ah well.
Goodnight!
I'll be back to visit as I always do!
Much love,
Corey Thomas
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Happy Holidays to everyone!
:)
I know I don't update here much..
But I thought I would today to let you all know what I made a new photo journal..
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) sec0nd_sight
Add me if you want.
Its friends only.
Leave a comment and I'll add you.
Just thought some of you might want it..
*shrug*
That is all...
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mmm.
look at my new sexy lay out.
*drool*
your jealous.
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[02 Nov 2003|12:17am] |
ouh.
i made a new layout for this journal too.
isnt it pretty?
i lurve the brian molko.
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[02 Nov 2003|12:05am] |
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haven't updated in here forever!
i think i'll start.
i'll use it for more public updates, pictures, etc.
yeah,i've said that before, i know.
blah blah. shut up.
nothings really new.
at all, actually.
erm.
since my last post back in like what?
september?
yeah september 22nd actually.
and it wasnt even a REAL update.
what happened since then?
~started to get my life back on track.
~started to become really happy for once.
~started to become the person i always wanted to be.
~started to see (L)jamie(L) again, but more so.
~got comfortable and settled in at school.
~became really close to certainpeople.
~lost my bestest friend in the entire world. :(
I love you Ericka! Rest In Peace! <3 >>orange_peelings<<
~lost alot of weight.
~sunk into a horrible depression.
~started to hate everything i became.
~started to hate everything.
~had my parents read my other, day to day lj >corey_thomas< and they now know everything about me. =/
~everything blew up.
and now here iam, trying to re-build and get my life straightened up and back on track.
im trying to be happy and not let everything and everyone drag me down.
life is a real shithole and it really sucks.
but what we gotta do is... suck it up and move on.
i mean it takes time for everything to be good again.
everything blows up at once. not at a widely arranged time gap but more like days between.
this past year of my life has been pretty horrible.
ages 16 ~ 17 were fucken brutal.
the worst days of my life.
also, the best days of my life.
i don't like growing up.
*sigh*
oh well.
what can we do, eh?
that is all.
:)
~c0rey th0mas
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